nobody knows you;

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Sun, 30 Nov 2008 22:41:25 GMT

what a weird fucking week...

VICTORY IS MINE.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Mon, 24 Mar 2008 14:10:02 GMT

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Thu, 25 Jan 2007 18:56:48 GMT

i'm glad to see you,
i had a funny dream and you were wearing funny shoes;
you were going to a dance, you were dressed like a punk
but you are too young to remember...

i've got no energy...i'm glad that you are waiting with me, tell me all about your day...

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Fri, 15 Dec 2006 21:21:09 GMT

later pcc.

thanks for the degree.

and even thought i still have to see you all the time because i will grace the halls of USF at your lakeland campus...i still really don't like you at all.

and jesus christ, how about some better administration? that'd be cool.

graduation.
630pm.
fsc.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Tue, 14 Nov 2006 20:42:47 GMT

i only feel cute when i wear my glasses.

it's awesome to be in love with yourself. because i really am. i only wish everyone could be as happy as i am being alone.

i have two options:

-try to take my graduation test somewhere else.

-wait, and take it next term, and take one easy class next term and work a lot and save money and move to orlando next summer.

i don't know. my parents want me to take the test and hurry up and finish school.

i hate decisions.

off to work. the library is a fun place. don't take it for granted, people.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Wed, 11 Oct 2006 11:39:57 GMT

don't you love it when you wake up, and your throat feels like it's on fire, you have loogies that could stop a train, and your nose won't stop running AND your eyes water constantly?!

i sure do.

but i'm going to see the yeahyeahyeahs tonight, damnit!

remember, kids:

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Wed, 19 Jul 2006 15:23:21 GMT

the one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Fri, 23 Jun 2006 14:21:52 GMT

SO. MSI was fucking great. i'm serious. i wish i would've went to see them all of those times before. but to me, the opening band, retardobot, was..really good. so i believe that on july 20, bateman, myself, and whoever else wants to come are going to GA to see them. it's going to be ohhhh so much fun. mini road trip.

anywho. other news. my birthday is soooon. july 13th. this means...well, i don't know what it means. we can party it up if you people want to. but that's up to you guys. all i asked for were birkenstocks and to get my window's tinted. and i think that's just what i'm getting. so gooood times.

today, i shall hang out with titties. and it shall be wonderus. i believe we're kidnapping someone today, that should be fun, as well. still not sure if ryan's hanging out. still have to see about that.

but other than that, i'm not doing anything. i cleaned my ass of yesterday, so there's none of that left to do. i just have to put some clothes away in my room. hm.

well. farewell, LJers. have a wonderful day :)

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Wed, 31 May 2006 02:56:05 GMT

so i think if i really had to choose. like REALLY. on who to marry, it would come down between penn jillette and anderson cooper.

that's really all i have to update on.

i'm going to watch good eats.

school is okay.

busch gardens was fun, sheikra is absolutely terrifying. but anywho.

ps. it is hot outside. all the time.

pss. still sleeping.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Sun, 07 May 2006 20:08:24 GMT

school tomorrow.

going to clean my room.

here comes the action...lord, give me a reaction...lord, give me a chance...

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Sun, 23 Apr 2006 15:53:02 GMT

so. i really like this song. the end.

uh. i have a 6-8 page paper due tomorrow. i've got about 3 pages of it done, so it shouldn't take me that long to do the rest of it.

i also have a humanities project...which consists of nothing more than a powerpoint. so eassssssssy.

but as for now, going to walmart to buy frames for my dali prints.

ps. i live in a pigsty. with two little pigs.

feed me here: fill me up again...

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Thu, 20 Apr 2006 14:12:15 GMT

well. i've been listening to a lot of the same songs over and over the last few days. good times.

today i'm going to visit lindsay f. at her job...then come home and get started on this english deal that needs to be done. i know i said i was going to do it yesterday, but guess what. i didn't. so oh well.

i couldn't get to sleep until like 5 this morning. i have no clue why. it sucked. so here i am, awake, 5 hours later. i feel fine, just kind of sucks.

i wish tool would go on tour. or a perfect circle. oh, maynard, how i need thee.

it is cold in my house. this was a pointless entry.

i think i want to go buy the a perfect circle album i lost a long time ago. i have no money. i'll swing it, just you watch!

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Tue, 18 Apr 2006 13:28:02 GMT

yay!! joon tonight. haven't seen them in a long time. shall be a good time with some good ladies.

well. i just finished reading 'less than zero' by bret easton ellis. (he wrote american psycho) and it was...disturbingly amazing. not so much that it was disturbing...but he's one of those authors that sneaks up on you. you finish the book...and put it down feeling deeply different. for no reason at all. there's nothing exceptional that happens in the book...but you just feel..different. i wish i could write like that. i wish i could sneak up on people like that! it would be amazing.

now i'm in the middle of 'breakfast at tiffany's' by capote. and it's amazing as well. i've never seen the movie, which i'm glad, because the book is amazing. i have a feeling the movie is going to let down. the book is only about 130 pages long, so i can't imagine they can make a cinematic masterpiece out of that.

today i'm writing up the outline/electronic notecards to my research paper in english. it's on the shortage of organs/organ donors. it's really interesting, and a serious problem. i can't believe that government is actually considering monetary compensations for organ donor's families. that will be a sad day in history.

then i've got to get started researching Dali for my humanities project. that's due in a week. but should be a snap. i think i'll have savanna help me with the powerpoint presentation. i think i'm getting a Dali cake made, lol. well, just a cake with a Dali print screened on it.

well. i'm sure i've bored everyone enough. just an update on what's going on. i got a cute new skirt, make wear it tonight. may not. we'll see.

another spring passes, another flower dies.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Thu, 13 Apr 2006 21:26:27 GMT

why are you alone? we're all alone. aloneness is...that's life. it's the quality of our aloneness that matters.

learn it. live it.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Tue, 11 Apr 2006 18:09:13 GMT

so i'm on lockdown. not allowed 'out' for quite awhile with certain people. which is AMAZING. i've been watching movies, reading, and catching up on my school work that i usually neglect. like today, i'm actually going to :gasp: study for a college algebra test tomorrow!! and hopefully i'll pass.

i'm going to ace accounting.
i'm going to ace english.
i'm going to ace humanities.
math..well...i'm trying?

my goals for this summer: (sarah, you are inspiring!)
-pass summer classes.
-keep a job.
-save at least $400.
-go to the beach at least 2 times.
-work out on a regular basis.

that's about it. hopefully, i'll be able to do all of this and MORE. i'm feeling really positive, my dad put a lot of things into perspective for me. i hate admitting he's right, but it's true, so..yeah.

my dry sockets are healing okay. i've been having to go to the dentist like everyday, which is annoying, but at least i'll be better soon.

alright. well i must go to lakeland pcc to take care of this summer class thingy...it's a long story.

i really love this song. and the scene aesthetic.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Mon, 10 Apr 2006 00:26:47 GMT

I’ve started to pick myself up, cause I’ve fallen to far to admit
It’s my fault for considering it
And these lies go too far to cover them up so I fall
It’s my fault and I have to admit, you were wrong
It’s about time I stood up, give myself sometime to forgive
Listen up and start writing it in
Cause these lines are screwed up, I wish I could ignore all the things
It’s your fault for considering it

And you’ve finally started seeing yourself through my eyes
Found time and I have to admit you were right
Yes you were and I'm proud to announce that in time you'll feel fine, you'll feel fine

Cause you're taking control, making sure that you’ve got things figured out
I'm finally taking control, cause I’ve got things in better perspective now
And I want you to know, that we're expecting the best, we're expecting amazing things from you
Break out of this home broken town and I’ve got something for you

Leave me to my desperation, have some things that might just hold me back from it
I’ve got time and an ear to listen and a feeling that you’re really needing this
Cant help it and I’m really sorry, I’m hurting more than I have ever hurt before
Crossed lines and a calm surrender, lots of compassion but you’ve got no where to go

And I’ve finally started seeing myself through your eyes
Found time and you have to admit I was right
Yes you were and I’m proud to announce that with time I'll feel fine, I'll feel fine.

Cause you're taking control, making sure that you’ve got things figured out
I'm finally taking control, cause I’ve got things in better perspective now
And I want you to know, that we're expecting the best, we're expecting amazing things from you
Break out of this home broken town and I’ve got something for you

Saved me from myself today, heard from someone you needed to be saved

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Sat, 08 Apr 2006 20:03:43 GMT

i frustrate myself. very badly.

why can't i ever be like 'no. i don't want to do that.' why does it always have to be 'okay, well..i'll see...' which gets me like permanently fixated to plans that i don't even want to have in the first place. i have no backbone when it comes to making plans with people. i need to learn to say 'no. i don't want to do that.' and if it pisses someone off, well, sorry, at least i'm not going and having a shitty time. yes, i only do think about myself a lot of the time. the only problem with this is that no one else does. so i'm the shitty one most of the time.

i just don't know what to do anymore. like honestly. i'd be content sitting in my room. but i'm always expected out. and always expected to play the part, and always expected to say yes to plans that i don't want. it's too much to live up to.

maybe i just shouldn't have friends. maybe i'm too self involved at this point to have friends.

i don't fucking know.

someone help me.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Thu, 06 Apr 2006 23:14:44 GMT

janice's story really made me think about winter haven and all the memories i have invested here. i never want to leave.

everyone's so desperate to get out..why? i love it here, my whole family's here...and there's the same bullshit everywhere you go, it's just what you make of it.

in other news. i'm really trying to spring a vacation to key west in between terms. this weekend, i'm working on my final projects for both english and humanities.

i may have a job!! well. okay. it's a long shot. but rebecca got promoted. so now someone needs to do her job. so i'm going tomorrow to talk to the boss and see if i can shimmy my way in there. because a job, would be really nice. and it would only be for like 16 hours a week. which would be sweeeeeeeeeet, because essentially i'm only paying for gas. and the occasional outing...and tattooooos!!! ahh. i need more.

i've got an idea for the next one..but only the words i want on there. there's an american nightmare lyric that says "we are handguns angel, waiting to explode..." and i REALLY want that somewhere on my body. i just need an idea for something around it. or maybe i'll just get it really pretty colors or something. who knows.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Wed, 05 Apr 2006 14:47:33 GMT

last update was a fluke. i slept through composition and accounting. i'm off to algebra.

i'm such a loser sometimes.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Wed, 05 Apr 2006 10:49:13 GMT

i'm so tired.

i'm so tired of being tired.

well i'm off to lay in my bed until it's time for me to leave and i'll spring up from a slumber and drive. how nice.

dry sockets. fun.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Mon, 03 Apr 2006 22:06:38 GMT

well. teeth update:

i have dry sockets on both sides of my lower mouth. so, for the next like two weeks, i have to go to the dentist everyday so they can pack medicine soaked guaze in my mouth. that tastes like rotten spiced chai. disgusting. makes me want to puke. and makes my breath smell really bad.

going to pcc to the art show opening. it should be a good time?

dentist at 9 tomorrow morning.

probably watching a movie by myself tonight or something. good times.

dinner w/ lindsay tomorrow night.

paper tomorrow during the day. i will get this done.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Mon, 03 Apr 2006 11:08:57 GMT

honestly, i'm tired of reading about it. but it's your journal. so okay.

i do not feel well. i got like...no sleep last night for some reason. i think a good like 2 hour nap is in order today after i get my humanities paper done. yeah. should've done it last week, when i had all the time in the world. but that's georgia for you.

well.

i guess i'm done here. i'm hungry and my mouth hurts something terrible. my face is all bruised. i don't know if that's normal from surgery, or what.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Sat, 01 Apr 2006 20:52:20 GMT

the past four days have been a blur.

i've been on some form of painkillers the whole time.

and only bateman and ryan have come to visit me. i don't know what this makes me think. at all.

bateman and ryan even got me out of the house!! bateman took me with him on errands and ryan took me to get ice cream!! it was amazing. i have cool friends.

tonight, i'm about to take some painkillers and drive to the auction/to get something to eat. it'll be a fun time, i'm sure.

still no word from lindsay. i want to hang out, i guess she's 'calling me back'. i don't know.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Fri, 31 Mar 2006 16:32:35 GMT

so i'm still a little swollen, still got a little bit of the chipmunk thing going on, but it's okay, 'cause i'm still damn cute.

not sure if i'm going to the unkempt show tonight, not sure if i'll feel up to it. i want to, but i'll probably end up driving my myself if i do so i can go home if i feel like it. which i'm sure i will after a little while.

other than that...hm...not much. i've just been sleeping, really, i should probably get out and ride my bike to get some blood pumping through me, make healing easier.

i can't remember how long i wait until i brush my teeth :( i know i'm just supposed to rinse and all that, but not when to brush. who knows.

well. i guess i'm out. going to clean the kitchen without help. fabulous.

brokenheartslnc@aol.com — Thu, 30 Mar 2006 21:38:30 GMT

note to self:

have something to do other than watch TV and sleep after you get your wisdom teeth out. i am bored.

and apperantly, no one loves me.